Struggling With Drug Addiction and in Desperate Need of Help! Please Help!!?
Question by serena: Struggling with drug addiction and in desperate need of help! Please help!!?
I have been struggling with a drug addiction for over a year now. It all started with marijuana which led to ecstasy which led to pain meds which led to cocaine. Before drugs, I was always the “good” girl. I was heavily involved in choir, drill team, and HOSA. But all of that changed. I was hurt by so many of the people that I let my happiness depend on. I had a lot of bad influences in my life and ended up hanging out with the wrong crowd of people. I went to truancy court for skipping 18 days of school over the course of the 1st semester.. out of 179 days I was present 161. My judge court ordered me to go to an inpatient rehab for 30 days. The rehab really helped me a lot and dramatically changed the way I think. I realized that none of the people I hung out with were true friends. They were all “using” friends.. No one has even called to check on me or anything. Anyways, my judge also put me on the type of house arrest where I can’t go anywhere without a parent. I truly believed coming out of rehab that I would never use again. 3 days out my dad accisentally left the keys to the alcohol cabinet out and I drank. I HATE drinking. I’m not sure why I did it, I guess the opportunity just presented itself. Needless to say I told my dad about it immediately because I drank more than I intended and I was crying the whole time until I blacked out. I felt the worst guilt of my life for a week after that. I’m a 17 year old girl who’s grown up without ANY necessities, my family loves me SO much. And while in rehab I realized that it wasn’t worth it to me to use drugs if it meant losing everything including my family. I haven’t had any cravings since I drank and I’ve been sober for about a month now. The arising problem is that my parents put me in a sober recovery school to be away from all of the bad influences in my life, but there are still people who use there and cheat their bi-monthly drug tests that we all have. It’s a huge temptation.. I realize that drugs will be everywhere I go and I have to learn to say no.. It’s just so hard. I wish this hadn’t happened to me. I lost all of my real friends so long ago and I have so little trust from my family. At times I feel as if I’ve overcome this disease but other times I feel very week. The only thing I still really crave are cigarettes which I was allowed to smoke befor I went to rehab but I’m not anymore. I just want to be ok. I don’t want to live like this anymore. Sure, things are slowly getting better, but too slowly. I’m still young, and I want to turn my life around. But it’s not easy. People think it’s so easy, as simple as just “not using” but it’s hard to understand unless you suffer from this disease. I would really like some advice or maybe even someone to talk to when I’m going through a rough patch. If you read through my whole question; thank you, it means a lot :)
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Answer by Rachel
Hi. I read through your whole question. I would suggest going to either alcoholics anonymous or narcotics anonymous and getting a sponsor. A sponsor is someone that you can call and speak with about cravings, triggers and changes that you are attempting to make. They are there for you when things become difficult and they understand what you are dealing with because they are in recovery too. It may give you hope and insight about your new sober life.
Although alcohol is not your drug of choice your disease of addiction knew that it was something that would numb you. It sounds like you are truly remorseful and want to remain clean and sober. Be patient.
A mental health counselor may also be helpful in learning how to manage uncomfortable feelings leftover from your using days, build self esteem and incorporate healthy boundaries for new relationships.
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